My blog is a lifestyle blog. I write about our lives and in particular my life. A big part of my life right now is my weight loss journey. When I decided to post about my journey in losing 100 lbs online, I knew people would judge me: I knew they would judge my food choices and I knew they would judge my workouts. Posting about my weight online meant that some of my “friends” would judge me for ever getting as big as I had.
Everyone Can See What I Weigh Anyway
Question: was I ever really hiding it? That’s the thing with weight and fitness. Everyone can see what you weigh. Have you ever put on 10lbs and had a girlfriend swear “they couldn’t tell at all?” Your friend told you a white lie that you both knew wasn’t true.
If you are struggling with your weight, everyone can already see you are struggling. In my case, I’ve lost the same 25 lbs 4 times in the past 15 years. Some of you know that I’ve struggled with my weight since college – you don’t know this because I’ve told you, you know this because you have seen me struggle. Unlike other struggles in our lives, weight is a really obvious one. Those close to you know if you’ve gained 10lbs… or 100. Not admitting it or talking about it doesn’t change the fact that it is true and others can tell.
Posting About my Weight Keeps Me Accountable
By posting my journey online, I am only admitting aloud to myself and others what we can all see is a problem. I have a problem – I struggle to keep my weight down. This is a common problem, plenty of people struggle with this issue.
My blog posts about my weight are for one (very selfish) purpose: they keep me accountable. In my mind, I have readers (even if they are all family members and friends) who are counting on me every day to achieve my goal. They are counting me on me to get past my struggle and to learn the self control I need to manage my weight. Since I’ve decided to be accountable and put myself in control, I am not embarrassed that I struggle with my weight.
Before I took control, I wasn’t hiding anything anyway…. everyone knew I had a problem. Now I am putting it out into the world and becoming accountable for my success. Since I started my blog, I am facing my problem head on.
Posting About my Weight Loss Shows my Hard Work
As women, we want to make everything look effortless and easy – I know I do. I’ve spent so much of my life pretending things were easy that were not easy. Law school? Eh, it not that hard. Engineering School? It was a breeze. Losing a friend or close relative? Oh, I’m managing.
Here’s the thing: All of these situations were hard and I needed to stop selling myself short. When I pretended that all of these things were easy, I was pretending that I had all of these innate abilities that I wished I had. I wished I was so smart that school was a breeze and required no effort. I wished that I was a naturally thin person that looked like a model with no effort. I wished that losing a loved one didn’t crush me. I wished that I handled life’s up and downs with grace and made them easy – but none of these things have been easy for me.
My blog is the start of a new chapter in my life. I am no longer pretending things are easy for me when they are not easy. I am no longer pretending that I accomplish the things I do and have with no effort. Achievement without effort is either the result of natural ability or pure luck. I’ve gotten where I am through hard work. Hard work isn’t something to sneer at, it’s something to celebrate. I’m okay with allowing others to see me struggle and I won’t be part of the “fake it until you make it crowd” any longer.
No one believed me when I was faking it anyway.