Some of you know that AMF and I have been trying for baby number 2 for some time. Last fall, I went on Clomid. While I was on Clomid, I kept a diary of my daily symptoms. I thought this would be helpful for others that are taking Clomid. Today’s blog post is all about my experience with Clomid.
Why am I taking Clomid?
Short answer: because my doctor prescribed it for me and my doctor recommended that I take it.
Long answer: I had some fertility testing done in May of 2015 and my bloodwork came back with lower AMH levels than other women of my age. I had the same testing done in 2011 and had normal or slightly above average levels. The downward trend was troubling, especially since my levels had plummeted over a three year period. At the time my doctor asked me to consider freezing my eggs if I was not planning on starting a family soon. My doctor also told me to plan on going through early menopause. I talked it over with AMF and we decided to see how things went for a year before exploring our options. We were married in September of 2015 and I got pregnant with Moochi in October of 2015.
Its now 2017 and I haven’t had my AMH levels tested yet. AMH levels do not increase with time and my levels in 2015 were low enough that they would be below average for my current age. AMF and I have been trying to have a second baby since May of 2017. It’s only been 5 months, but at my annual, my doctor felt that with my history it’s appropriate to start Clomid now. She wrote me a script for 3 months of pills. If I do not get pregnant by January of this year, she has recommended that I see a fertility specialist and go through additional testing. AMF and I have agreed that I will not be going through additional fertility treatments – if our family is meant to be just AMF, Moochi and I, we are happy with that. We would like to know if it’s unlikely for us to have another baby so we can get rid of all of this baby stuff and stop dreaming about being a family of four!
What Regimen was I Prescribed?
My doctor prescribed 50mg during cycle days 3-7. I took the generic version because that is what my pharmacy filled. It cost around $20 and my insurance did not cover any part of it.
How did it go?
I know bring you my Clomid Diary….
CD 1: My regular AF symptoms, light cramps.
CD 2: My regular AF symptoms, light cramps
CD 3: My annual. My doctor and I talk about my fertility and she immediately recommends that I go to a fertility specialist due to my history. At the end of the appointment she prescribes Clomid and we agree that I will go in January if it doesn’t work after 3 months. Since I am currently on CD3 and she wants me to start today, I have to pick it up today. Probably a good things since I won’t have time to google everything that ever went wrong with someone who took it. I pick it up around 3 and take it. I feel completely normal all day.
CD 4: I feel mostly normal and really hopeful. I am convinced that this my month. I google Clomid success stories and become convinced that this will work for anyone. I wake up sweating a few times that night, but otherwise have no symptoms.
CD 5: I wake up sweating again.
CD: 6: no symptoms
CD 7: no symptoms
CD 8: I start using OPK because my app says I should. Negative
CD 9: My app says I am fertile. My OPK is negative. I think I feel a slight twinge in my left ovary. Its like its waking up and feeling alive. I feel really hopeful that something is happening and that its going to work.
CD 10: Cramps on both sides I am extremely tired. Today I feel like I did when I was first pregnant with Moochi, just exhausted.
CD 11: Cramps on both sides. I am exhausted again. Everyone I’ve talked to say that they had almost no side effects, do they just not remember? I am glad I am keeping this journal. I feel so yucky! OPK is negative
CD 12: Cramps on both sides, they are worse than yesterday. My right side is especially sore. I also feel nauseous. OPK is negative.
CD 13: Not Quite Positive ovulation test. I am super disappointed because today is the day that I should be ovulating according to my app. I become convinced that I am not going to ovulate at all. I google low AMH and clomid and decide from reading three message board that there is absolutely no hope for me and I might as well just admit I am in menopause. I feel sharp cramps all day. It does feel like something is working…. I just am not getting positive OPKs.
CD 14: Not quite positive ovulation test. I am distracted from my work because I am convinced something is wrong with me. The cramps hurt… like a lot. I am also starving. I feel like I am in full blown PMS. I feel like I could eat a house and still be hungry. I wonder if I am experiencing hyperstimulation. I google the symptoms and decide that I can’t be because although this hurts, I have a low pain tolerance and if it was hyperstimulation, I’d probably be on the floor of my office in a ball begging for death. WHY AM I NOT GETTING POSITIVE OPKs? I take three today and they are all slightly negative. Ugh.
CD 15: Ovulation Test is positive around noon, the test line is slightly darker than the control line. I do the happy dance and feel relief – I did ovulate! My cycles are typically only 24 days, so this only leaves 9 days for the luteal phase, which is short. Moochi is here, so I know its worked out before. I briefly consider whether I should have been prescribed clomid for days 1-5 instead of 3-7. I google this and find one really convincing study and briefly consider switching things up next month. Then I remember that its not a great idea to take prescriptions in a way other than how my doctor prescribed them and decide to follow protocol. Physically, I feel like crap. I am bloated and hungry. I’d compare it to strong PMS symptoms. I have horrendous cramps on my right side. The cramps subside around 6pm and I am convinced its because I ovulated and that I will feel fine from here on out.
CD 16. Ovulation Test is negative. The control line is slightly darker than the test line. I feel crappy. I am SO bloated. I am hungry. I am cranky. I have cramps. I swear my left ovary is going to explode. Am I ovulating? Do I have a cyst? Am I actually just already pregnant? Did I get pregnant last month and miss it? I google “9 day luteal phase” and decide there is no way I will ever get pregnant and that Moochi is a freak of nature. Later that night I decide to POAS (pee on a stick) anyway. Big surprise…. its negative. I curse at myself for wasting a test and feel really stupid.
CD 17: I wake up today and actually feel normal for the first time since I took the pills. I even make it to gym and get a full workout in. No cramping, no other symptoms and I have tons of energy. OPK is negative, but only slightly.
CD 18: I go for a run in the morning and feel great. I feel slightly nauseous in the afternoon and have lower energy than normal. Moochi wakes up in the middle of the night with a stomach bug… maybe I have what he has. OPK is negative, more negative than the day before.
CD 19: I have mild cramping all day. Its almost like a warm twinge that runs between my hip bones. I also feel slightly bloated. I text a friend and tell her that I am for sure pregnant. I don’t know why, but I just “know.” She agrees that it’s possible to just know. I think about how silly I am going to feel typing this journal entry when AF comes next Saturday. OPK is negative – the line is faded to almost nothing.
CD 20: I feel really good in the morning. I feel so good that I hit the gym hard! By mid-afternoon I am very tired and wish that I could nap instead of working. The cramps have moved to my back, they are still light, but noticeable. I pour myself a glass of wine during a Board meeting, but can’t seem to enjoy it. I leave 3/4 of the glass behind.
CD 21: I feel slightly nauseous and still have back cramps in the morning. I keep touching my stomach and praying, “stick babies, stick” over and over again.
CD 22: I feel normal
CD 23: I feel normal
CD 24: I feel normal. I tell my dentist that I think I may be pregnant. Later that day I find out that I am definatly not pregnant.
If you have any personal questions about my experience, please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. Also, please remember, I am not a doctor and you should take to your doctor about your individual health needs. I wrote this post anyone who wonders what its like to be on this medication. This post is not meant to “normalize” any symptoms or raise alarm if you are experiencing different symptoms. You need to talk to your doctor about your concerns. Special Note: Please never take any prescription drugs without the advice and care of your own doctor.